Monday, March 19, 2012

So hard

It's been almost two months, and it's still so hard. I find myself thinking of him again, late at night, and I just miss him so desperately. It's so heartbreaking to look at our photos. I miss him so much. I love him, I keep dreaming that he'll get to come home, and then I wake up and he's gone. It's so damn hard.


  1. Hi there, recently stumbled across your blog. Was sorry to read about your Ivan. :( I lost my own horse around the same time. It is definitely hard! Keep your head up :)

  2. Hey, thanks for the note. I still miss him, but I think I always will. As I've been trying to move forward with my life and continue on my dressage journey, sometimes I'll still get a little emotional because I'll encounter a new task that I had always wanted to do with him, but we never got that far. Still, the only direction to move is forward. I'll see him again someday, this side or the next. Thanks again :)